Saturday, August 26, 2006

OK, I'm over it

Well, as Scarlett O'Hara always said, "tomorrow is another day." Today is yesterday's tomorrow (got that?), so I have a new attitude. I've climbed out of my pit and am ready to act like a normal human being! Sure, I'm disappointed that we have to wait another month (or more), but when it happens, it happens. We'll get the daughter we were meant to have (see, I told you I'd say that).

I think I deserved 24 hours to feel sorry for myself, and I took it. Now, onward!

Yesterday I posted the link to some other July referral photos, but I wanted to post a special link today so you can see Miss Olivia Jane Wei Schmick. Olivia is the newly matched daughter of Michelle and Eric. Michelle and I have gotten to be good friends through this process, even though we've yet to meet face to face. We found each other through the a Yahoo! group set up for folks whose dossiers were mailed in July. I mentioned that I live in the Chicago area, and Michelle wrote that she had grown up here. Before long we were e-mailing privately, finding that we had many other things in common. In the last few months we've exchanged quilt squares, told each other stories of our families, and solved each other's problems. We've ranted about the delays and delighted in each other's good news. Yesterday, she called me minutes after she received word of her referral, and I was one of the first people to see photos of Olivia. She is absolutely beautiful, of course. Michelle and I both like the outdoor photo best.

Even as she was sharing her good news yesterday, Michelle was asking how I was doing. And even through my own sadness, I was delighting in her happy news and crying over her daughter's photos. (Michelle! You're a MOM!) We had hoped to travel together, and now it looks like we won't, but I'm looking forward to her blazing a trail for me to follow and sharing her advice for those first few days of motherhood. And when we both get back, Michelle will bring Olivia here to meet her grandparents and other relatives, and we'll all meet. And we hope Olivia and Rachel will be friends.

So go look at the baby!


Anonymous said...

Susan, Thank you so much for writing such wonderful things. I can't wait for the day when you call me to tell me Rachel has arrived. I know this has been a long and difficult journey but hang in there sister friend! You've made it this far:) Just think in a few months we will be calling or emailing each other regarding parenting questions and sharing stories of our little girls. I can't wait to actually meet you. We are planning a trip home to Illinois in January or February:) Can't wait to meet you one day!!


Nancy said...

Olivia is so beautiful!